[ the slow deep breath ugetsu takes is as sharp as his bones. sightless eyes still gaze downward at what he assumes are his legs. was it really an accident? he laughs. it hurts. ugetsu can't get any paler but he goes impossibly rigid. his hands, still shaking, feel disgustingly heavy.
not mine. ]
Ha... [ another sharp breath. it struggles through ugetsu's lungs. ] ...I don't know. They haven't found anything.
[ about the other driver.
or about me.
and of course, ugetsu won't tell. not yuki. not the investigators.
not himself.
he doesn't remember anyway.
who had he last spoken to? or seen?
again ugetsu breaks into laughter. like a wine bottle shattering. like a still burning cigarette put out with hands in panic as they took light to sheet music. it's funny. it's so funny. it's hilarious. he can't stop laughing. he's not laughing. he can't breathe --
-- sometimes, after getting high with yuki, ugetsu would drop. the most severe lows were explosive. tantrums devolved into fights devolved into bouts of hysteria. this is like that but worse.
they said ugetsu was lucky. they pulled him from the fire and called him lucky and ugetsu wanted to strangle them.
i think yOU are stuck with ME (and this tragic mess to end all messes)<3 <3 <3!!!
not mine. ]
Ha... [ another sharp breath. it struggles through ugetsu's lungs. ] ...I don't know. They haven't found anything.
[ about the other driver.
or about me.
and of course, ugetsu won't tell. not yuki. not the investigators.
not himself.
he doesn't remember anyway.
who had he last spoken to? or seen?
again ugetsu breaks into laughter. like a wine bottle shattering. like a still burning cigarette put out with hands in panic as they took light to sheet music. it's funny. it's so funny. it's hilarious. he can't stop laughing. he's not laughing. he can't breathe --
-- sometimes, after getting high with yuki, ugetsu would drop. the most severe lows were explosive. tantrums devolved into fights devolved into bouts of hysteria. this is like that but worse.
they said ugetsu was lucky. they pulled him from the fire and called him lucky and ugetsu wanted to strangle them.
gasping for breath hurts.
yuki is here.
yuki shouldn't be here.
why did you come...why did i let you...
why did i also...want you to.why. ]