Sending a message that fast afterwards, you must be worried. I'll think about it as he wasn't really on my mind at the moment. However, you did remind me.
[ maybe just akihiko. and non-romantically, mafuyu. but other than that most are interested in things about ugetsu, not ugetsu himself. not that he can fault them on that, and he isn't interested anyway. but he can tell the difference without even trying. ]
Is that so? There are people who find your talent quite amazing.
[ if idea lacked the skill, it'd be an essence he'd love to strip away from ugetsu. what spares him is that he's interested in different things that create the man's character, and if one stands out then maybe idea will change his mind.
for now, it's just the very few people he interacts with that idea looks into. ]
The shape of your face, the time it takes for your smile to build. You should take a look into the world a little more, and maybe you will see.
[ idea only does because that's what a limited life span offers him. ]
i don't know that i count the admiration of fans and patrons. if you asked them specifically what they liked, they might be hard-pressed to tell you.
[ the comment on his face does earn a sort of dry humor on ugetsu's side of things. it says a lot he's messaging this much, given how much he hates cellphones. but his layover is extensive and there's nowhere he's allowed to practice, so... ]
my world is here.
[ the violin case currently resting on his lap though he's not going to explain that. ]
[ it seems pointless to restate akihiko's name, and he's not got any reason to cite mafuyu specifically. if he tries to think of anyone else, well, he can't. oops. so not "a few". a couple. oh well. ]
[ a few, and yet akihiko is the only one who is apparently off-limits, idea files away that he'll get a more in-depth understanding of those around him through a report.
he likes him enough so there's no reason to shake up his world just yet. ]
Come out of your world sometimes so I can see you.
if you want a seat at my next performance, it's easily done.
[ aside from that, ugetsu sees no reason to offer anything else. "out" of his world? the stage. his basement apartment. the sometimes-apartment in new york. he's not even sure he'd count the latter, yet.
he's not sure why hagiwara has enough interest to converse, but if he wants to see him in-person, post concerto is opportunity enough. ]
A world-renowned professional player allowing me free entry? Who knew there was still kindness in that world of yours.
[ idea tries to keep himself from laughing, but he'll accept what's given considering it would probably be entertaining enough. he'll leave renge to do the work and make sure that all the testing in the facility goes correctly. ]
Thank you.
[ he has manners. ]
Or am I getting ahead of myself. Is there something you want?
i have an allotted number of tickets for each performance, so it's not as though i had to go to any extra trouble for it.
[ which isn't to say he wouldn't try to collect later, if something did occur to him, but he doubts it will. there simply isn't anything he can think of wanting that hagiwara could offer.
the fact that he would not call it kindness hardly needs to be said. ]
after performances is when i know i'll have some time, though it's often promised away in advance twice over if i'm not careful.
[ that, and he would never arrange a meeting before a performance, not wanting anything to interfere.
but it's true that his time is vied for usually, once he's already in the open after being on stage. there are politics that come with being murata ugetsu, though he handles them as little as possible. ]
[ amazing when idea has so much time to do whatever he wants, but it's not like ugetsu is given the same luxury as him. there's no lackeys beneath him that handles all his problems, vice-presidents to pick up what he sets down, and his own hard-working dog that does everything he says completely. ]
I'd suggest you take the next month off, I'm sure you can make that possible.
that would require a lot of cancelled performances.
[ which is the same as saying "no it's not possible" or at least ugetsu isn't willing to do it. he's not attached to the limelight itself but it goes hand in hand with his luxury of pursuing music. if he doesn't have this, there will be nothing, and for all the hours he spends practicing in his soundproofed basement apartment, it's not the same. it doesn't reach anyone here, the convoluted mess of things overwhelmingly big and terrible and beautiful. music reaches further than one thinks but it has to be in a place it has the chance to do so. ]
[ there's no ifs, ands, buts or nos about it as idea decides for both of them. this is what knowing someone from a criminal organization will get him: in situations that he wouldn't want.
because the pieces that make ugetsu are carefully wrapped in the world he's made for himself with its limited people and interactions, idea must see how he fares outside of all of that.
he's so curious, it can't be helped. ]
If you're unable to cancel them, I can. I'm sending someone to handle everything.
[ . . . between having acquaintances in criminal organizations and a father who's a prominent diplomat, ugetsu feels he could do with less of both when these sorts of situations crop up. at the same time, he's curious despite not wanting to be. the cancelled performances don't bother him in terms of expectations un-met, but rather that sometimes they draw out of him a new kind of sound. hm. ]
even if you cancel them, why would i go? where, even?
[ unconsciously his head sinks deeper into the scarf thickly circled around his neck, eyes low-lidded. it's not even his scarf, but breaking up with one's first love doesn't mean letting go. ]
[ idea laughs at this noticing the other's willingness or could it even be called that? it's the "if" but there's not really an "if" it's more so a command that will be done. one individual feels encouraged to see this out for as long as idea focuses on something else that isn't his private work, then the happier they are. ]
I'm thinking a private island with clear waters. I'm not finalized on the choice.
[ there are some places known for their museums, but the issue here is idea's weak body so there's only so much he can offer.
his choice would revolve around one where he offers little energy. ]
but also, ugetsu rarely encounters anyone who dares actually demand anything of him, much less command. his ex is a different matter and the power dynamics in bed are never translated outside, for better or for worse. which means it's intriguing in its own weird way.
or is he just restless?
if he were to agree it wouldn't matter to him where as long as he can bring his violin. ]
How cute, do you think I'm the type of man who accepts "no" as an answer?
[ ugetsu should know this, if it wasn't obvious before it should be obvious now. idea makes decisions and will see them through, even with ugetsu's father who he is, idea doesn't feel threatened. rather, his father should be pleased that idea engages with his son in such a... respectable manner.
as respecting as idea makes it out to be. ]
You're lucky I like you, there's many ways I can persuade you. But I'll play nice, so why deny good company?
[ idea teases, a smile pulling onto his face knowing if he wanted, he could have someone grab ugetsu right now, force him to come along.
it's not a thought he's going to dismiss though. ]
not particularly, but i've certainly said no to others who think the same of themselves.
[ if a text could have a tone of a shrug, that would be it. ]
and i think i'm the one who decides if you're good company or not.
[ part of ugetsu knows he shouldn't be pushing his luck. a bigger part of ugetsu can't help himself, prone to playing bad decision roulette. lately he's been performing more and more stunningly but it feels also like walking a tightrope. he's not sure why. somehow, pushing and pulling with hagiwara doesn't feel as imprudent as he objectively knows it probably is. ]
[ that's what idea likes to think, but he is special in a way that he'll transcend this life that he has. not many can say that they've thought of doing that or ever achieved, but he's so close, and maybe he will take a piece of ugetsu to perfect it.
he hums, delightfully so until he has to try and decide what sort of company he'd be for him. the best, surely. ]
I wouldn't want to be rough with you, and that fact alone makes me good company. More than you know.
[ this is like a game of cat and mouse, and idea feels like the cat who is poking his paw along the belly of the mouse he's stumbled upon. rather than eating him up, he decides to keep the individual to entertain himself, and idea is always in a pleasant mood when he's able to ignore ugetsu's choices in favor of his own. ]
can't think of a time i've ever complained about anyone being rough, even when they were.
[ now then, he's well aware they are speaking of it in very different contexts and he knows hagiwara will understand this too. but he says it anyway, because why not. ]
in the hypothetical situation where i do go with you, the least you could do is provide the things i need.
[ if he shows up with just the clothes on his back and his violin, well, surely other clothes can be provided, preferred cigarettes, and anything else, though he can't honestly think of anything at the moment. ]
There are those who enjoy the abuse more than others.
[ he's well aware of how ugetsu speaks, improper and crass, but his "charming" personality is well received by some people. it's vulgar, but it's not outside the unfortunate norm that idea has to deal with.
though, they never willingly spoke about their sex life so proudly. ]
Don't be foolish, this isn't hypothetical. You'll be coming with me. I don't understand why you're trying to be so difficult about this. But, of course, I will provide the things you will need.
[ he will, which means idea has the final say in what the man needs, and things like cigarettes? oh no, not good for idea's poor health, but things to sustain ugetsu's survival... well, he can do that. ]
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I'll think about it as he wasn't really on my mind at the moment.
However, you did remind me.
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You have so many people that are interested in you.
[ isn't that a good thing! ]
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[ maybe just akihiko. and non-romantically, mafuyu. but other than that most are interested in things about ugetsu, not ugetsu himself. not that he can fault them on that, and he isn't interested anyway. but he can tell the difference without even trying. ]
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[ if idea lacked the skill, it'd be an essence he'd love to strip away from ugetsu. what spares him is that he's interested in different things that create the man's character, and if one stands out then maybe idea will change his mind.
for now, it's just the very few people he interacts with that idea looks into. ]
The shape of your face, the time it takes for your smile to build. You should take a look into the world a little more, and maybe you will see.
[ idea only does because that's what a limited life span offers him. ]
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[ the comment on his face does earn a sort of dry humor on ugetsu's side of things. it says a lot he's messaging this much, given how much he hates cellphones. but his layover is extensive and there's nowhere he's allowed to practice, so... ]
my world is here.
[ the violin case currently resting on his lap though he's not going to explain that. ]
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[ nor does he care, but if they want to talk about the shallow interests of people who learn about ugetsu, then they can do that. ]
Are you the only resident or is there more people in your world?
[ people have a different view on what makes their world, and it's conversations like this that tend to be interesting. ]
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[ it seems pointless to restate akihiko's name, and he's not got any reason to cite mafuyu specifically. if he tries to think of anyone else, well, he can't. oops. so not "a few". a couple. oh well. ]
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[ a few, and yet akihiko is the only one who is apparently off-limits, idea files away that he'll get a more in-depth understanding of those around him through a report.
he likes him enough so there's no reason to shake up his world just yet. ]
Come out of your world sometimes so I can see you.
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[ aside from that, ugetsu sees no reason to offer anything else. "out" of his world? the stage. his basement apartment. the sometimes-apartment in new york. he's not even sure he'd count the latter, yet.
he's not sure why hagiwara has enough interest to converse, but if he wants to see him in-person, post concerto is opportunity enough. ]
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[ idea tries to keep himself from laughing, but he'll accept what's given considering it would probably be entertaining enough. he'll leave renge to do the work and make sure that all the testing in the facility goes correctly. ]
Thank you.
[ he has manners. ]
Or am I getting ahead of myself. Is there something you want?
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i have an allotted number of tickets for each performance, so it's not as though i had to go to any extra trouble for it.
[ which isn't to say he wouldn't try to collect later, if something did occur to him, but he doubts it will. there simply isn't anything he can think of wanting that hagiwara could offer.
the fact that he would not call it kindness hardly needs to be said. ]
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[ what that means is pretty vague, but the working mind of idea is an interesting thing, there's so much to do and to be done in a specific way. ]
Is there a reason I can only see you after your performance?
[ he'd ask if this is his way to calm himself, or maybe find comfort before having to deal with others... but he'll keep his thoughts to himself. ]
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[ that, and he would never arrange a meeting before a performance, not wanting anything to interfere.
but it's true that his time is vied for usually, once he's already in the open after being on stage. there are politics that come with being murata ugetsu, though he handles them as little as possible. ]
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[ amazing when idea has so much time to do whatever he wants, but it's not like ugetsu is given the same luxury as him. there's no lackeys beneath him that handles all his problems, vice-presidents to pick up what he sets down, and his own hard-working dog that does everything he says completely. ]
I'd suggest you take the next month off, I'm sure you can make that possible.
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[ which is the same as saying "no it's not possible" or at least ugetsu isn't willing to do it. he's not attached to the limelight itself but it goes hand in hand with his luxury of pursuing music. if he doesn't have this, there will be nothing, and for all the hours he spends practicing in his soundproofed basement apartment, it's not the same. it doesn't reach anyone here, the convoluted mess of things overwhelmingly big and terrible and beautiful. music reaches further than one thinks but it has to be in a place it has the chance to do so. ]
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[ there's no ifs, ands, buts or nos about it as idea decides for both of them. this is what knowing someone from a criminal organization will get him: in situations that he wouldn't want.
because the pieces that make ugetsu are carefully wrapped in the world he's made for himself with its limited people and interactions, idea must see how he fares outside of all of that.
he's so curious, it can't be helped. ]
If you're unable to cancel them, I can.
I'm sending someone to handle everything.
[ doesn't idea work so hard for him. ]
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even if you cancel them, why would i go? where, even?
[ unconsciously his head sinks deeper into the scarf thickly circled around his neck, eyes low-lidded. it's not even his scarf, but breaking up with one's first love doesn't mean letting go. ]
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[ idea laughs at this noticing the other's willingness or could it even be called that? it's the "if" but there's not really an "if" it's more so a command that will be done. one individual feels encouraged to see this out for as long as idea focuses on something else that isn't his private work, then the happier they are. ]
I'm thinking a private island with clear waters. I'm not finalized on the choice.
[ there are some places known for their museums, but the issue here is idea's weak body so there's only so much he can offer.
his choice would revolve around one where he offers little energy. ]
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[ another question. for fun.
but also, ugetsu rarely encounters anyone who dares actually demand anything of him, much less command. his ex is a different matter and the power dynamics in bed are never translated outside, for better or for worse. which means it's intriguing in its own weird way.
or is he just restless?
if he were to agree it wouldn't matter to him where as long as he can bring his violin. ]
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[ ugetsu should know this, if it wasn't obvious before it should be obvious now. idea makes decisions and will see them through, even with ugetsu's father who he is, idea doesn't feel threatened. rather, his father should be pleased that idea engages with his son in such a... respectable manner.
as respecting as idea makes it out to be. ]
You're lucky I like you, there's many ways I can persuade you.
But I'll play nice, so why deny good company?
[ idea teases, a smile pulling onto his face knowing if he wanted, he could have someone grab ugetsu right now, force him to come along.
it's not a thought he's going to dismiss though. ]
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[ if a text could have a tone of a shrug, that would be it. ]
and i think i'm the one who decides if you're good company or not.
[ part of ugetsu knows he shouldn't be pushing his luck. a bigger part of ugetsu can't help himself, prone to playing bad decision roulette. lately he's been performing more and more stunningly but it feels also like walking a tightrope. he's not sure why. somehow, pushing and pulling with hagiwara doesn't feel as imprudent as he objectively knows it probably is. ]
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[ that's what idea likes to think, but he is special in a way that he'll transcend this life that he has. not many can say that they've thought of doing that or ever achieved, but he's so close, and maybe he will take a piece of ugetsu to perfect it.
he hums, delightfully so until he has to try and decide what sort of company he'd be for him. the best, surely. ]
I wouldn't want to be rough with you, and that fact alone makes me good company.
More than you know.
[ this is like a game of cat and mouse, and idea feels like the cat who is poking his paw along the belly of the mouse he's stumbled upon. rather than eating him up, he decides to keep the individual to entertain himself, and idea is always in a pleasant mood when he's able to ignore ugetsu's choices in favor of his own. ]
You should start packing your things.
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[ now then, he's well aware they are speaking of it in very different contexts and he knows hagiwara will understand this too. but he says it anyway, because why not. ]
in the hypothetical situation where i do go with you, the least you could do is provide the things i need.
[ if he shows up with just the clothes on his back and his violin, well, surely other clothes can be provided, preferred cigarettes, and anything else, though he can't honestly think of anything at the moment. ]
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[ he's well aware of how ugetsu speaks, improper and crass, but his "charming" personality is well received by some people. it's vulgar, but it's not outside the unfortunate norm that idea has to deal with.
though, they never willingly spoke about their sex life so proudly. ]
Don't be foolish, this isn't hypothetical. You'll be coming with me. I don't understand why you're trying to be so difficult about this.
But, of course, I will provide the things you will need.
[ he will, which means idea has the final say in what the man needs, and things like cigarettes? oh no, not good for idea's poor health, but things to sustain ugetsu's survival... well, he can do that. ]
You don't want for much.
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can you believe my phone didnt post this tag
homophobic of it tbqh D<
honestly it did not like the way idea was speaking to him
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my turn to be sure i replied to this lmao scream
LMFAOOOO SOOO TRUEEE its ok i understand you the best
handshake meme forever
always know you can take your time tho, no rush!!
you too tho! never any rush! backtagging is very real and true
happpy new year and i hope you had a wonderful christmas!!
happy new yearrrr things are nuts im sorry this was so delayed 💔